Archive | June, 2013

Fiery love, warm embrace

26 Jun

Fiery love, warm embrace that is what my Big Daddy in heaven is made out of. I do love that phrase actually… think it just describes the passion and love and type of loving person my Daddy God is. smiley face

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wedding dreams

24 Jun

It doesnt take a genius to tell me my dream wedding isn’t going to be realised any time soon, but it doesnt mean a girl can’t dream right? Sighs… weddings. Its not really about the man is it. Its about your dream as a little girl walking down the aisle in a absolutely drop dead gorgeous dress with all your best friends celebrating it with you. Not to mention the ring and the feast that you will be having afterwards. The little video that shows your photos, ones that you took in your beautiful dress with a man that may not look like your husband after all the powdering. But the prettiest photos you’ve ever taken with dreams that have been around before your spouse even came along. That is the wedding. 

Its not the future of married life nor the thought of having kids but its your childhood dream being accomplished. Where you look and feel and become a real princess, where it is suppose to become your doorway into what might be. Suddenly i feel like i am 10 again, in church camp buying all the cheap make-up with my best friends and having fun imagining our mature us with everything perfected and totally in control. Where the best guys that you could ever imagine will drop at your doorstep just waiting for the day you were born. Hahas talk about perfect, but we were dreaming… Dream weddings where nothing could go wrong, and everything is just absolutely perfect. 

Fast forward a few years later, my new goal is to be single until i’m 26 but whenever i watch a wedding movie i’m being brought back to my childhood where dream weddings and korean dramas go hand in hand. I still can dream 🙂

Unfinished

24 Jun

 

Two thoughts today, one cute and one not so cute.

First one… the journey of liking someone is sometimes more exciting than the journey of being in a relationship. Its one thought of what may be and the journey of seeing him for the first time smiling and paying attention to you and thinking that everything that happens is about you and him. Welllllls it’s not about me 🙂 its about young love one in my family group and the other in another family group. Absolutely cute and i have a friend who is watching the love story unfold with me 🙂

But i do hope that they will get together in the future. Because when you talk to them you can really tell its beyond looks and about their character. 

Second thought. To be honest i forgot hahahahas But i am wondering what if i cant fit in in both churches? Then what? I float around? Sighs Maybe fit in isnt the right word, its more of what if i can’t find a clique. 

God, thought

14 Jun

love- when you go on a mission trip and you truly love them, a part of you gets left behind. Does love mean arts and crafts, games and pictures? I have absolutely no clue. I suppose so, but a part of me wonders does it really? How many people remember oh so and so came and played with me? What makes me as a christian stand out from the rest in the things that i do?

I was looking through hundreds of photos today, and believe me hundreds of photos of the same event is boring, but God appearing in those pictures was what made me excited. I guess thats my answer for my question. Thanks Daddy….

Jazlyn out

 

thought

12 Jun

i have a ton of things running through my mind… whether or not it’ll come to pass is another thing. I am learning things i have never dreamed of learning, but i am also not learning things that i thought i would be learning. My expectations are sometimes my greatest failures. 

single till im 26…

12 Jun

i have a goal… erm but im not sure if i will achieve it yet but i will try. I want to stay single until im 26. I think achieving it will be quite simple as long as i stick to my goal. I know im not some super attractive person, in fact im really really ordinary, but as much as i want a love found in my dramas, i want to be single until i’m 26. Hopefully i wont be single for life, but i do want to be single for now. I’m single on paper, but it doesnt feel like it. Maybe its time for me to let go… and catch on to the new wave.