Archive | September, 2012

rant leadership retreat

28 Sep

upset today… i wasnt at first but then i found out that jon got to sit in during the peaks profiling thing and not that he was already suppose to… so found that when i asked if i could sit in the answer was NO but for him church paid for the profile and he got to sit in… which i wanted so badly to do. All the things that i desperately want to do the answers i always get are either NO or u can but only if u have nothing to do. or later then u can ask if u can do… but everything that i dont want to do im forced to do. it sucks… it really does. cause its like i wanted so badly to go but i understood that only cluster leaders and directors so i cant just go in if not then its unfair. so i was fine with it although i had nothing to do the whole entire day except for cutting of 3 pieces of paper which i asked to do….and my driving lesson…but when i found out my dad made an exception for him then it sucked…it seriously sucked…like i know my dad said he would go through with leon and i but not only issit not the same it will never happen…so basically i can nvr understand my profile nor explain it to leon because of my bias dad…people were worried that i would get favoured -.- WRONG obviously they dont know my dad well enough… even though im an intern i would nvr get the same good treatment that helps them to learn and get to watch videos and gets discussions even though he is my freakin father…. only his old interns would get it even when they arent interns and this intern will nvr get it…so honestly i dont get why people keep on asking me whats it like working with my father since i dont actually work with him and neither do i learn anything from him nor do i get special treatment or anything …i dont even get normal … i get worse… so it freakin sucks  


27 Sep

got really upset…not angry but upset at c theology or point of view whatever lah… she thinks that even though she plans but as long she she does it for God is correct…and im like no its not…why on earth should it be?!?! u arent letting him lead, u do everything u want to do and say its for Him. Thats exactly the kind of crap that all the other youths around and at my age and ‘leaders’ older than me are doing. Not say its worked very well -.- all their im doing for him but i want to be the one deciding. its just crap cause the only person who wins is u. and even then some times u cant win either. so pissed off with all their ‘knowledge’ like if i pray and ask God in order to help i gotta fast…like why on earth do u need to do that….just have faith tht he will answer your prayer and even if he doesnt u fast or dont fast does do anything…i believe in fasting, i know there is a purpose and a time and place but i dont think u need to fast in order to like get God to agree to your requests.  

24-25 aug

26 Sep

24 aug

went to YWAM base but didnt really find the free worship that amazing…i mean compared to the 11:15 i find the 11:15 more open… then we went to willing hearts for like a short look around cause the place isnt very big. Then we went for lunch and pa treated us (emanuel and aunty mary) then pa left and the three of us went to health serve learn about their ministry. although they are all christians, its not an christian organization… so as to get funding from gov. it sucks though i mean ….all these organizations so much love but lacking in sooo much power… so it feels crappy 

after that took half day cause i couldnt stand doing all these love outreaches anymore good thing it was also suppose to be my off day. so im glad i had time to myself. 

25 aug

went to st luke did lanterns… ok lah then found out aunty carol wouldnt let leon play in youth service… cause jon asked too late… so hoping God will let him play…so felt crappy

23 aug – 18 sept

19 Sep

23 aug thurs 

had the first youths meeting with the Leaders comm… it was okay just like listening to them and their problems sounds alot like ympact and yet slightly different… 

did sweets for teachers day with kok wei and yong shen and went out with them and jon and km n charlene and emanuel 

24 aug fri

off day

had mission meeting… the first one… where elvin said he doesnt like talking to people which made me like er what a thing to say. didnt like the kids songs that aunty goldie and pearly chose… cause it was super old and one of them was sing hallelujah to the lord -.- and ps lynette and jon thought the same thing. 

25 aug sat

went for walk a mile… really discovered how irritating it is to get support (money) when u are poor and the gov is like i want to give it to u but come back in 3 weeks time -.- so felt really bad although i had surplus because i pawned one of my ‘jewelry’ items.

26 aug sun


had PIC CL and went for 9 am

27 aug mon 

off day

28 aug tues

at st lukes- did the foam flower

met km jon choy and emanuel to discuss youth meeting

david damien at night 

29 aug wed

photo taking

night outreach meeting and ptm and devotion

30 aug thurs

met aunty carol, she told us about childrens min and brought us out to professor brawn for lunch with km and went to hospital visit the ssk kid(hole in the heart) and talked to the mum.

31 aug  fri

choon hwee showed us his talking computer

met unc jeff and he brought us out for lunch told us about cells

mission meeting at night…intro them the whether it rains or pours and fixin my eyes on you and makin melodies with jon choy. ps lynette asked us to teach them the song

1 sep sat


2 sept sun

chinese sunday school… i taught the lesson (odysessy)

3 sept mon

off day but met covenant FSC to talk about youth drop in centre in the morning from 9:30-11:30…sian but it was also good although i got roped in to do mni olympics which got out of thanks to emanuel on like 16 sept cause he talked to aunty mary for me. 

4 sept tues

met jon to do worship in the morning. then afternoon had meeting with aunty carol and aunty mary and emanuel- had debrief over the past few weeks…was good cause i got to share and heard about emanuel sharing too. 

5 sept weds

had ptm and devotion then afternoon practiced worship songs with jon…got to know him better 

6-11 sept cebu!!! 

 12 sept weds

devotion and ptm …shared about healing during devotion 

watched the video in the afternoon…bonding and i had to talk to KM and jon choy …how i became worship leader and apparently suppose to be tribe leader later but idk how true it really is.

13 sept thurs 

roots n wings

14 sept fri

doing book report

15 sept sat

BB prata &SSK children’s day meeting

16 sept sun

went for youth service and went for MIA in the afternoon and sian lol all nothing about supernatural 

17 sept mon

off day 

18 sept

at st luke did paper birds and finished book report and met clarice instead of going for heidi baker but did the right thing cause clarice was feeling really down and wanted to go drinking