Archive | August, 2011


29 Aug

i saw a leopard/tiger/lioness soo not sure… yesterday. aug 29 God i have a problem i dont know what exactly i saw and what does it mean.  i know i asked u earlier just now in the car and now while sitting on the sofa. In the car i saw purple thats how i thought of lioness and now i saw like a tv screen but i dunno royal tv?

i dunno 

random thoughts

29 Aug

i have several things which i need to do but i wanted to do this first. 🙂

Dear menses, i really wonder what would happen if guys have it, I think it’ll be rather amusing actually, different people with different symptoms to tell them that its here and prepare for its arrival. The mood swings, the cramps and those heavy days where it can be a bother just to move around or even stay in one place. Not to mention the fact that it’ll be here for a long time and when it wants to go away it’ll throw a going away party by making you have the same symptoms it has when it comes. Dear menses, ill admit it can be useful to use you as a bonding topic, because its something every female will have. Even then no one’s menses is the same. You are all different and special in your own special way. So i think ill thank you for appearing but i do wish it could be once every year instead of once every month, because then i think it’ll make life just a little more fun 😛


21 Aug

Learnt something else today 

The gospel is God’s love story. We can tell about Jesus’s pain and it may work abit but God and Jesus’s love that we cannot, that is why many a times even when we tell the gospel from our point of view it works for a short while but at the end of the day it still needs to be told from His point of view because we cannot tell his love story without his love being used to tell but we can tell about his pain to a small extent and even then only Jesus can tell about his pain to really reach into our hearts and touch our spirits.


sat night i kept on seeing yello. tons of yellow…thn i went to sleep lol

thought..romans 12:1-2

20 Aug

i think romans 12:1-2 puzzles me… niv 1984(the newer ones are diff)  says it is our spiritual act of worship however niv(new) nasb nkjv NLT and the Message has many other different stories to tell. but the one main thing was between the reasonable service of worship and spiritual service of worship. Reasonable to me would mean worship that was befitting of Him(our King) and spiritual welll…our spirit. Which then would mean that we have not covered our physical act of worship. After all the main question that i usually seem to hear from this is what is the meaning of worship. I like amplified… it states both reasonable service and spiritual worship. at the end of day… what i took… was that it was just on important part of our worship to God. Our worship to God should consist of not just spiritual but physical. But often times we do the physical and no spiritual and that is not a reasonable service of worship befitting of our king i guess thats why we should emphasize both.


20 Aug

I saw this last night i was going somewhere, i was moving quite fast.

later on not connected i saw words( no clue what words they were thought) then a i saw a beautiful flower Hibiscus with the thingy in the middle. It turned blue and white and i dunno what other colours, red maybe and before each time the flower changed colour… i saw yellow flame-like shaped(its not a flower). after which i saw a two one people, one guy and girl but they were cartoon not real life… then suddenly came a third man out of no where in the background. And there was a twinkling thing that came like a blue glow and it went inside the third man(i think… cause i rmb thinking the third man got shot. by the twinkling thing.then i woke up.

but somehow later when i got up, i remember there was a part(that maybe wasnt either of the two) where i thought that i was wondering whether that was God’s answer… but i cant really rmb my qn…think it was something about how to reteach the gospel then?

second thought of the afternoon…

won’t you lord
take a look at our hands
everything we have
use it for ur plan

won’t you lord
take a look at our heart
mold it, refine it
as you set us apart

we want to run to the altar
and catch the fire
to stand in the gap (understood it in a new way)
between the living and the death
give us a heart of compassion
for a world without vision
we will make a difference
bringing hope to our land

we will answer the call
to build this church without wall
let your glory be shown
bring salvations to the lord 

talking to my daddy

19 Aug

Dear God, i think there are many things in life that i have yet to understand but those that i understand right now, somehow i wish i was able to say it out rather than phrase it in a question and sound really dumb. I ask whether You can speak through a person in a meeting without having to pray and listen… but i already know You can cause You’ve done it a few times in me 🙂 and it surprises me on the things i learn when i hear myself. Sometimes i wonder if i dont ask…then will i ever be able to communicate my thoughts? If i do communicate it… does it really matter since we are living in a place where hierarchy is the most basic thing and often people who are younger are thought not to have the most amount of knowledge about You due to our age. 

Although one thing that i still havent forgotten about is that to me the gospel will always be two parts. First part is Your love(Your story) and the second part is the experience. because everything about You is love as You are love. However teaching love is not enough… rather teaching about You is not enough. We have to stop using ourselves to teach and to let You teach. I always thought that experience is separate after or before the story as there are always healing rallies and then the teaching of the Gospel but i think i wasnt looking at it properly. the gospel in essence is about Your love… the two parts are still there and there is still a great importance. for without it it wouldnt work. But here’s the thing… We always needed a spiritual experience after because You werent teaching. But when You teach in essence that is how teaching about Your love and experiencing Your love should happen. It should always be a simultaneous thing rather than the separate thing that we have made it out to be.

Teaching the gospel… the problem is now whether there is a need to teach it properly or to redo the whole entire thing. The gospel is one of the layers of the soil/ base of the building we cant add on we have to break it and rebuild. But thats through tongues…

But the one thing that puzzles me is that how did i build mine in that case since i spoke tongues after the experiences. Unless i didnt have a foundation in the first place… then i didnt need the rebuilding. All i had to do was build it.

sheldon is right… we need to teach it but i really wonder if its telling Your story from our mouths. I dont think thats the case. Then God how do we teach the gospel? I always thought it was fulfilling the second half 


3 Aug

if the body isnt listening to the head then how can we say its not our fault that we are all stuck in this rut?